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do you feel the same way i do about you?
성훈 x fmr genre: angst warns: cursing, shit talking, alcohol/drinking, unrequited love, parties, not proofread
Sunghoon is your best friend. Someone you’ve gone through hard times with, someone who’s always been there for you. It was easy for you to catch feelings, but it was also just as easy to hide them away.
The one thing people always say about you and Sunghoon is that you’re so different it’s almost comical. He’s loud and cheerful, albeit around people he’s comfortable with, while you’re quiet and shy with practically everyone, even him.
You’ve tried over the years to branch out and make more friends, but you always find yourself falling short and just missing the mark.
But Sunghoon, he’s never made you feel bad about your personality, if anything he’s allowed you to embrace it.
Which is why when he convinced you to go to a party with him, he was as shocked as you were.
You don’t go to parties, they’re just not for you. But Sunghoon said this one would be good and a chance for you to make more friends.
He wanted to introduce you to his other friends, the ones he’s made at your college.
You were hesitant but decided it might be worth it in the end.
Only problem is, you don’t have party worthy clothes. Your style is basic, you wear jeans and sweaters on most occasions because you prefer comfort over anything else.
When you tell Sunghoon this, he urges you not to worry about it, saying he’ll handle it.
What exactly does that mean? Buying you the skimpiest outfit he could find.
The dress is short, barely covers your ass and your chest is nearly exposed.
“Sunghoon, I don’t think this is for me,” you say, staring at yourself in the mirror.
You did your own hair and makeup, although barely any, and the outfit was the final touch.
You don’t look like you.
“Are you kidding? You look great!” He says, enthusiastic as ever.
“I just… I don't look like myself, you know? I feel weird.”
“I promise, everything will be fine. I know you’re stepping out of your comfort zone for me, and I really appreciate it. This is just part of it.”
Sunghoon, ever the sweet talker, smiles when you nod.
“Okay, let’s go.”
The drive isn’t far, it’s being hosted by Sunghoon’s friend Jay.
When you say the house is gigantic, you mean it.
Your one bedroom is more like a studio compared to it.
Your nerves start to get the better of you, and you almost don’t want to get out of the car.
Sunghoon opens the passenger door for you, holding out a hand, “Come on.”
You take it, and he leads you up the steps and straight inside, not even bothering to knock.
Then again, why would he have to? It’s a party for god's sake.
He leads you through a wave of bodies until you reach the kitchen.
6 other guys are standing there and Sunghoon greets them eagerly.
You can’t help but stand there awkwardly, twiddling your fingers and looking down at the ground.
“Guys, this is Y/N, my best friend,” Sunghoon says as he begins to point at everyone, “Y/N this is Heeseung, Jay, Jake, Sunoo, Jungwon and Riki.”
You wave at them, giving a shy smile as they all greet you.
“You didn’t tell us how pretty she is, Sunghoon,” Heeseung says, raising an eyebrow.
Sunghoon scoffs, “Yeah yeah, don’t overwhelm her, this isn’t her type of thing.”
He grabs two beers from the fridge, opening them and handing you one.
You sip it gently, souring at the taste. You’re not a big drinker either.
It’s not long before Sunghoon effectively abandons you.
He dragged you to the dance floor one minute, then the next he was gone.
You don’t know why, but something is telling you to head upstairs.
It’s there you hear your name coming from a bedroom with the door slightly ajar.
“Why didn’t you introduce us to Y/N sooner?” You barely recognize Heeseung’s voice amongst all the noise coming from downstairs.
You certainly recognize Sunghoon as the next person to speak, “Parties aren’t her thing, I told you that.”
“We’ve been in college for 4 years though. This is the first time you’ve gotten her to come to one?”
“What else can I say? She’s a stick in the mud.”
“That’s not a very nice thing to say about your best friend,” Sunoo speaks up.
“I know, but it’s true. She’s kind and all but she’s so shy and closed off that she can’t make friends. The only reason we really became friends is because our parents pushed us to be close.”
Ouch.
“So you’re friends with her out of pity?” Riki asks.
“I wouldn’t say that,” Sunghoon retorts, “she’s sweet and I appreciate having her as a friend but she’s kinda boring and our personalities don’t really match at all. If it weren’t for our parents, we probably wouldn’t be friends at all.”
“That’s harsh, man,” Jake pipes up.
“I know, I just…don’t know how else to describe her.”
You’ve never felt genuine heartbreak. Not until this moment.
So this is how he feels about you? The best friend you thought accepted you for who you are, truly just…tolerates you?
Has he always felt this way? Has he only kept you as a friend out of pity?
You never thought of yourself as less than when it came to Sunghoon, but now, you’re doubting everything you thought you knew.
As tears gather in your eyes, you turn around making your way back downstairs and out the front door.
You call yourself an uber and go home, crying silently in the back seat of this stranger's car.
Once you make it inside your apartment, you take the heels Sunghoon bought off, thank god because they were killing your feet.
Heading into your bedroom, you look at yourself in the mirror again. The girl glaring back at you, isn’t you. She’s what Sunghoon wants you to be, but clearly you can’t give him that.
You almost tear the dress as you’re taking it off, and change into sweats and a t-shirt.
As you lay in bed, you think back on your years with Sunghoon.
All the time he tried to convince you to do things with him, all the times you tried. All the times you asked him to do something with you and all the times he declined because they “weren’t his style.”
Has it really always been like this? You, trying to be different for Sunghoon, but Sunghoon, never trying for you?
Suddenly you feel humiliated.
Humiliated at the fact that your friendship with Sunghoon has all been a fluke.
You’ve always accepted Sunghoon for who he is. Yet, he never truly did the same for you.
Your phone buzzes beside you, Sunghoon’s contact coming up with a text.
‘Where are you?’ It says.
You don’t bother answering, instead, putting your phone on the charger and turning it off.
You fall asleep with your eyes swollen and heart broken.
When you turn your phone on the next morning, it’s full of texts from Sunghoon.
You, again, don’t bother answering. You’re disgusted by last night's events.
You don’t have class thankfully, so you lounge around in your pajamas all morning.
It’s not until noon when there’s a knock at your door.
You mentally slap yourself for not checking the peephole, because once you open it, you regret it.
Sunghoon stands there, an evident frown on his face.
“Why haven’t you answered my texts?” He says, immediately.
You feel snappy, like the word nice is not in your vocabulary at the moment.
“Can I be honest? I didn’t want to talk to you.”
Sunghoon’s face furrows, “Why? What’d I do?”
You just begin to laugh. You don’t know if it’s the leftover pain morphing into anger or the fact that you’re tired.
“Why are you here Sunghoon? I don’t need your pity, not anymore.”
“What are you talking about?”
Then, you’re shouting, “I heard you last night! You’re friends with me out of fucking pity and I’m honestly disgusted!”
Sunghoon’s face morphs from confusion to shock.
“I…you heard me?”
“I did.” You nod, “And honestly, if you were so fucking bored of me, you should’ve just ended the ‘friendship’ instead of dragging it along like this.”
“Y/N I…I didn’t mean any of that—,”
“Yes you did! You did because if you didn’t, you wouldn’t have said it.”
There’s nothing but silence from his end, like he’s trying to process everything while you’ve already caught up.
You can feel tears pricking your eyes again and damn if it isn’t embarrassing to cry in front of him, but at this point, you don’t care.
“You know what hurts the most?” You ask as Sunghoon looks up, into your eyes.
“The fact that I did so much for you. You wanted to go out? Fine. You wanted me to put myself out there in a place I was totally out of place at? Fine. So many times I made myself uncomfortable for you. But the very few times I asked you to do something with me, for me, you always said no. It wasn’t your thing. Do you realize how fucking pathetic I feel knowing my friendship was so one-sided?”
Sunghoon doesn’t say a word, tears gathering in his own eyes. “I’m sorry.”
You nod, “I’m sorry too. Sorry that we both wasted our time. Sorry, that I ever had feelings for you. Consider this ‘friendship’ over, Sunghoon.”
With that, you close the door in his face, locking it before letting yourself break.
You settle on your couch, curling into a ball, clutching a pillow as you cry.
There’s a few stray knocks, but he eventually leaves.
WONKIZZ 2025
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ISLAND GETAWAY;
PRIMAL - LAMIA - LAVENDER BEDS - WARD 22 - PLOT 35
Guess who finished the first build of the year and is really proud of it… :3c
idk why the lightrays look so violent they look so pretty in-game
#ffxiv#ffxiv housing#ff14 housing#ffxiv screenshots#ff14#ff14 screenshot#windupscholar#it took many brainblasting hours#and thanks to my partners lovely help and suggestions#i stepped really out of my comfort zone for this#but i really like it#so i hope you do it#supposed to be a rendition on her canonical island sanctuary home post endwalker :)#alot of experimenting and trying new glitch techniques
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Huevember: Day 3 - Amber Stalker 👁️🌲🌟
#huevember#huevember 2024#fanart#art#digital art#artist on tumblr#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#bill cipher#dipper pines#mabel pines#dipper and mabel#waddles#i am stepping so far out of my comfort zone with doing backgrounds i never ever do backgrounds they scare me#but i do really want to learn them#and i have to accept that in the process of learning something i am going to have to suck at it :)#i don't hate how this came out though#things i could have done better but opted to push forward and just get it done#improving my speed was another reason why i decided to do this so#rambling now :(#I FREAKIN FORGOR TO TITLE THIS
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bloody lestat
#why did i choose such a hard head angle for my first iwtv fanart#can’t really look at it without cringing but hey i stepped a teensy bit out of my comfort zone#art#digital art#procreate#artists on tumblr#fanart#iwtv#iwtv fanart#interview with the vampire#interview with the vampire fanart#lestat#lestat fanart#lestat de lioncourt#lestat de lioncourt fanart#louis pointe du lac#sam reid#sam reid fanart#vampire#vampire art#vampire fanart#louis x lestat
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I bit God's hand and now he wont even feed me
This ones inspired by a picture of Mary holding Jesus but, since Virgil grew up in foster care and never knew his mother, there's no one there. Just the hollow space where someone should be.
It speaks to his relationship (and subsequent disconnection) with his heritage and culture as the orphaned child of immigrants and his difficult relationship with religion, having grown up religious but feeling betrayed and abandoned by god after his injury.
I wanted it to look like an old post card, it says return to sender but unfortunately they didn't leave a return address. It's probably just gonna sit at the post office until they throw it away. :-(
#i figured out how to use more than one brush and now im unstoppable actually#i usually dont feel the need to explain shit but i put a lot of thought into this one#and i know a lot of the virgil lore only lives inside of my head#ive been really enjoying challenging myself and stepping out of my comfort zone lately#virgil acheron#modern au#bg3#durge#dark urge#ocs#oc art#my art#i did this all by hand btw i made the lil stamp and everything :-)#ok thats all thx ily#sorry i only care about my oc#my brains bad#angel argyros#circles
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Hello! I hope you have a nice day, I love your art a lot and I wanted to know if you have maybe anything about your process to do you drawings?
Heya! I am having a good day ty :DD I hope you are too^^ and thanks this is really nice dshgjds TvT
I will be really honest but I don't have a lot of time to draw in general so my process is more 'this is between cosmic entities, the 30minutes I have and me, I draw whatever the fck happens in my head' rather than having really complex steps :'))
I have some speedpaints! (I record them a lot it helps me for some details)
I think this one is the most representative of how I work
I doodle a lot of stuff on the same file and I often go to one drawing to another because I can't draw more than 30min/1hour on a drawing most of the time ://
When doing bigger illustrations I do sometimes just really quick doodles to have the idea, doodle or some notes on my phone notepad (and I wrote a lot on it too, here is a chaotic example of a stuff I never finished that makes me laugh so hard)
I don't do lineart too, and mostly just 'clean' my sketches/doodles, and I do a sketch for colors too (to test stuff) before doing the 'clean colors' on bigger pieces.
I use one layer for the sketch, one for the basic background and one layer for the colors, then merge everything to paint over it. (I use some effects on layers for colors then merge them)
Here is the layers on my last sketch (I am happy I saved the steps ahah)
the sketch
the colors
and the merged one where I painted a lil bit over
I have a really doodling/sketchy style (and no time) so it works for me but tbh it really depends on what you want for your artstyle too. If you like flat colors I think colored lines look better than just sketch but this is my preference ^^
Idk if this is what you mean but I hope it helps ^^ thank you for your ask!
#toilet bound hanako kun#asks#aoi akane#shijima mei#yashiro nene#this is chaotic af help#speedpaints always made me realized how messy I draw dhskjds#I hope to spend more time on drawings tbh! I always rush stuff but I wanna do bigger pieces dsghds#tbhk#tbhk fanart#step by step#ig??#I will be honest don't learn how to draw like I do :')) I learned according to the free time I have which isn't a lot dshjds#So I adapted in a 'gotta go fast' style :'))#which also mean I ''improve' ar a really slow pace because I rarely go out of my comfort zone#I wanna try that too! :DD#my art
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My travel partner came yesterday! I brought him so I have a plush that I could take around with me for a few reasons. Those being... it is a small plush I can put in my bag for going to work or anywhere else I'm helping out at, I can practice my photography skills with him, I like to get something for my interests/ fixations, TO NORMALIZE PLUSHIES IN PUBLIC cause if someone else sees a person carrying a plushie around then it will hopefully make people more comfortable to do it too and see that it isn't bad or something to be ashamed about, and to help me with my confidence in being myself and see that no one really truly cares what you do.
#he also feels really nice and it gives me something to fiddle with#octonauts#octonauts kwazii#octonauts kwazii plush#I took a small step out of my comfort zone to take photos of him out in public at a little park reserve#there were a few people that were going past and such I could feel and see them looking but I told myself it was fine#I feel good for doing it!#non reblog#plushies#love having another fixation added to my collection
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Rain Code Ship Week Day 1 - Healing
Not only do I have a late start, I will also be going through these prompts at a snails pace.
#raincodeshipweek2024#makoyuma#mdarc fanart#master detective archives: rain code#mdarc spoilers#raincode spoilers#raincodeshipweek#yuma kokohead#makoto kagutsuchi#I don’ really ship these two but I’ll be using this ship week to step out of my comfort zone#Also a surprise feature of my post-canon Yuma and Makoto designs#my art <3
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long overdue second dbhwks fic (2.8k)
SLAVED AWAY at this for days (i didnt. i could have done it in one but i procrastinated so much it’s unbelievable. but heres some food) quite happy w how it came out too if i do say so myself,, hope u enjoy!! 🫶
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“Sorry I’m late.” Dabi. He’s picked the damn lock again.
“Oh my god, do you seriously not know how to knock?” Hawks calls back, practically skipping into the living room.
“Don’t wanna stand around outside your door like a creep, thanks,” deadpans the villain. Hawks rolls his eyes.
“You look like more of a creep picking the lock, but sure. Come here.”
He takes Dabi by the hand and leads him toward the couch. His fingers are warm, like usual. God, has Hawks missed that. Between hero work, villainy, and conflicting schedules they’d barely had time to see each other and, man, was it miserable. It takes everything in him not to bowl Dabi over with an absolutely suffocating embrace - it’d probably kill the man.
Dabi raises his eyebrows. “You cleaned?”
Hawks had expected Dabi to notice, but not point it out, so he’s a little caught off guard by the halfway-question. “Oh, yeah,” he says, a fraction sheepishly, “Is it too much?”
“Mm, no, looks good,” Dabi smirks, “Makes a nice change from all the crap you’ve usually got lying around.” Hawks hits him playfully and he laughs, clear and smooth, not at all like the peals brimming with malice he’d usually hear from Dabi.
“Uuugh, I hate you, leave me alone,” he complains. When Dabi’s eyebrows raise again, Hawks pulls a face and adds, “I’m a busy man! I don’t have time to clean!”
“Yeah, yeah, whatever. I’m flattered.”
He sits Dabi down on the couch, maybe a little too eagerly, and comes down to straddle the taller man’s lap.
“You’re so pretty,” he whispers, before pressing his lips to Dabi’s with an urgency that only comes from being deprived of seeing one’s lover for far too long. Dabi loosens underneath Hawks and they quickly fall into a long practised pattern, all pretences dropped for this moment of touch-starved tenderness. Nothing exists outside of this room, everything is so warm, and Hawks melts even more when he feels Dabi smile against his lips.
“Seems like someone missed me,” murmurs the villain, voice sleek and low. The response is simply a hand laced through the dyed-black hair at the back of Dabi’s head, taking hold of him and pulling him closer with nothing short of absolute need. In turn, Dabi’s hands find the small of Hawks’ back, and heat begins to pool in his stomach as they slowly threaten to sneak closer to the bases of his wings. And his lips are warm, so warm, and he always seems to know exactly what to do with them to make Hawks collapse like putty in his hands. For a crazed villain who incinerates shit for fun, Dabi’s a fucking good kisser.
…And a tease, apparently! Hawks knows that Dabi knows how badly he wants this, and how long he’s been waiting - yet he still seems to be taking his sweet time. He can feel the villain absently tracing circles into his back, with the same pace as his mouth is working against Hawks’. The little shit. He knows exactly what he’s doing; well, two can play at that game. Hawks takes it as a challenge, takes Dabi’s scarred face between his hands, and takes control. He presses closer, kissing the man with some previously unseen vigour, practically forcing him to match the increased pace. A little wave of triumph passes through Hawks as he hears Dabi’s breath catch in the back of his throat, nearly silent, but they’re close enough that nothing can really go unheard. Feeling like he’s succeeded, Hawks goes to indulge further, perhaps elicit some more reactions like that, when he feels Dabi’s hand leave his back. Before he can register it properly, the hand is upon his chest, pushing with some insistence. Hawks pulls away, panicked.
“Oh, shit, fuck, sorry, was that too much?”
The arm Dabi has outstretched towards Hawks’ chest slackens slightly, as do his facial features. He doesn’t reply, but rather his lips part and his eyes glaze over, forming an expression so laced with vulnerability that Hawks is almost taken aback - though, he can’t dwell on the display for long, as he’s quickly instead watching Dabi bring his other hand, curled tightly into a fist, up to his own face and press it most firmly to the underside of his nose. His chest rises once with an inhale not unlike before, only this time a little louder and deeper, and he ducks forward slightly with two slightly-awkwardly stifled sneezes.
“hhahh-! ..hh’nGXT! kxNTsh! Ugh, fuck.”
“Oh!” Hawks says, a little surprised, “Bless you.” A part of him wants to chide the villain for holding it in like that, but he refrains, knowing full well he himself would stifle exactly the same.
Dabi hums in lieu of a thanks, and Hawks returns his hand to his boyfriend’s face and leans back in.
“Can I go back to kissing you now?” he murmurs.
Dabi rolls his eyes but drapes his arms lazily over Hawks’ shoulders, an invitation, yes, you can go back to kissing me now. Their lips interlock once again, picking up where they left off, with Hawks feeling absolutely on top of the world from the fact that he’s doing the work here, he’s the one kissing Dabi, not the other way around. He’s never been opposed to Dabi taking control, in fact he loves being ravaged by the man, but sue him, sometimes it feels good to be the one doing the ravaging. However, his elation at this seems to be poorly concealed, or perhaps Dabi just wants to knock him down a peg, because Hawks feels teeth closing on his bottom lip. Not so hard that it hurts, but just enough to tease an audible gasp from him as he tenses up on Dabi’s lap. He’s fairly certain he’s never needed someone all over him so badly until this point. Clearly it shows, too, since Dabi insists on being such a menace and playing the long game with him. Well, Hawks decides that’s not going to fly; he presses in closer, almost entirely closing the gap between them and slides his other hand behind Dabi’s head, not-so-subtly tugging him closer and kissing him harder, once more regaining the upper hand. He takes to gently thumbing back and forth against the base of Dabi’s neck, to which the man lets out, involuntarily, a little noise of satisfaction, finally accepting submission. Hawks is almost tempted to bite Dabi back, but maybe that’d be pushing his luck. Besides, this side of Dabi - soft, pliant, accepting - is one he rarely sees, and he’s kind of into it. It’s a good look on the villain.
Before long, however, their rhythm is broken once again. One of the arms laying around Hawks’ neck begins to move, and the hand meets his shoulder. Hawks has a sneaking feeling he knows what’s coming (for the second time), as Dabi’s hand pushes against his shoulder - slowly, though, as if he’s really trying to prolong the inevitable. It really doesn’t seem like he wants to pull away, so Hawks does it for him, gently separates their faces, strangely endeared by Dabi’s reluctance - and it seems he did so at exactly the right moment. Being so close to him, Hawks can easily see the way his face immediately crumples, eyes flickering shut and lips parting with an inhale that sounded as though it had been waiting to be drawn for… a while. In a split second, he’s tugging the sleeve of his hoodie over his hand with some urgency, and Hawks catches the flare of his nostrils right before he pinches his nose, clamping the thick black fabric over the bottom half of his face. There’s hardly six inches between the two of them, so Dabi twists awkwardly to the side with a set of cruelly stifled sneezes.
“hh’GKTtch! ‘KXXSHh! Ugh, god– h-hahH’KGXt’sh!”
They sound harsher this time around, harder to stifle, probably.
“Bless,” says Hawks, “You okay?”
“Mm… yeah, just something really… stings,” Dabi replies. He’s knuckling the side of his nose with some force.
“You’re, uh, not getting sick are you?” Hawks asks, unable to conceal the tinge of nervousness that seeps into his tone. As much as he loves the man, he’s got some long days on patrol coming up soon, and a cold from Dabi would severely compromise him.
Dabi raises an eyebrow. “I’m not that much of an asshole, Kei.”
“Right-! Yeah, no, of course not. Sorry, I didn’t really think there.” Hawks grimaces internally at himself, and Dabi shakes his head.
“Ugh, Jesus, hold on–” He turns away again, breath wavering, “hehh’nGXKt!” A shaky exhale escapes from him as he releases his nose.
“So, what’s got you all worked up, then?” asks Hawks, teasing.
Dabi half-sighs, half-groans, and replies, “Don’t know, but I wish it would fucking stop.” As if for emphasis, the sentence is punctuated with an irritated-sounding sniffle.
“Well, it probably would if you stopped stifling like that,” Hawks says pointedly. That earns him a hazy blue-eyed glare… that doesn’t last long, since Dabi’s squinting again, and his mouth curls up into the beginnings of something akin to a snarl. Hawks smirks as he ducks into the crook of his sweater-clad elbow to muffle yet another sneeze.
“hehH’DSHHh’uh! What the fuck?”
At least he didn’t stifle it.
Hawks hums. “Bless you.” He sends a feather to retrieve a box of tissues, then decides the villain probably also needs some space, so he manoeuvres himself gracelessly off Dabi’s lap to sit beside him on the couch.
“Very elegant,” Dabi remarks.
“Ugh, shut up,” he replies, elbowing Dabi in the ribs. The laugh this elicits almost straight away rises into a staggered gasp, that itself turns into a pair of hastily covered sneezes.
“hhahH’KXXTshuh! hh’huuhh’DZSHHhue!”
“Jeez, bless you.”
Dabi sniffles thickly. “Yeah.”
Hawks’ feather zips back into the room and drops a box of tissues into Dabi’s lap - the thicker, softer ones that the hero always insists on buying despite them being double the price of regular ones.
“Sounds like they’re getting stronger,” Hawks observes, a note of concern in his tone, but then adds, more teasingly, “Not allergic to me, are you?”
Dabi scoffs and tugs a couple of tissues from the box. “I wish,” he says, scrubbing at his nose. “Then I’d actually have an excuse to avoid your annoying ass.”
“Wow, okay, that was so uncalled for. Just say you hate me at that point.”
It’s Dabi’s turn to elbow Hawks back. He probably deserves it.
“Ow, bitch,” he says in mock offence.
“You’re the bitch,” comes the reply, from behind a handful of tissues (which are then promptly screwed up and tossed, flying in a neat arc, straight into the trash on the other side of the room).
“Whatever, bitch. Are you done sneezing yet? This couch isn’t as comfy as your thighs-”
“Ugh, shut up, you are so weird,” Dabi interjects in fond disgust.
“Oh my god, what if you’re allergic to my apartment being clean? Then I never have to clean ever again, hah!”
Dabi gives him a look. “You say that as a joke, but honestly, you migh-might be right…hh.. hehH’KXNTtsh’uh!”
Dabi’s expression falls midway through his sentence, brows drawing together and eyes narrowing as he gives into another sneeze, hastily half-stifled against the back of his hand.
“Seriously,” Hawks deadpans, eyebrows raised. That’s new, he thinks.
“Well, unless you’ve suddenly acquired a pet cat - which I doubt - then yeah, seriously,” says the villain flatly, though with a note of congestion starting to creep into his voice. “Last I checked, your place didn’t reek of fuckin’ –all of spring and then some.”
Hawks suddenly remembers the air freshener he’d used–the only one he had, some floral one found right at the back of a cupboard, unused for entirely too long. He hadn’t had a clue what clean apartments were supposed to smell of, so he’d sort of just… went ham with it. Definitely a mistake.
“Don’t slander my choice in scents,” he teases, “Are you sure it’s… that?”
“Nothing else changed ‘round here, has it?” Dabi pauses to give his nose a brief rub. “I’m here practically every week and I’ve been fine, so, you tell me.”
Hawks will never not poke the bear when he’s got the opportunity, so he says, “So this does mean I never have to clean the place ever again, right?”
Dabi’s mouth falls open as he feigns offence. He says, dramatically, “Wow. That’s all you have to say? When I could literally die right now in front of you? I’m.. hah- I’m-”
Hawks snickers. “Bless you,” he sing-songs prematurely, utterly pleased with himself. It’s almost cute, the attempted glare Dabi gives him through his glazed over expression. Nobody can look menacing in the slightest when they’re trying not to sneeze (and that’s a fact!).
“Sh-shut uhhhp..” replies Dabi, his voice quavering. He lifts a hand slowly, bringing it to hover weakly before his face. His breathing is unsteady and his eyes half-lidded, and the crease between his dark brows deepens.
“Okay, point proven, idiot,” Hawks says with a laugh, “Just sneeze, this is torture even for me.”
The hazy glare returns, and Hawks clocks it.
“Oh!” he laughs, giving Dabi a slightly bewildered smile. “Oh my god, I jinxed it. You deserve that ‘cause you’re mean to me.”
“I hahh-hate you-” Dabi responds breathily. He rubs at the side of his nose with two knuckles, pressing decently harder than is probably necessary. The bridge crinkles in irritation when the rubbing clearly has no effect. “Jesus, it won’t go away.”
“Mm, what a shame.”
There goes a third bleary glare from the villain. “I’d like to remind you wh-whose fault thhihhs.. was in the first place,” he says. Any malice intended to be behind his utterance is immediately negated by his breath catching and wavering through the words. Though, at a point, Hawks begins to feel a little… voyeuristic just watching Dabi struggle. Sure, he’s his boyfriend and all, and yeah, he’s definitely seen worse, but it’s easy to tell Dabi’s getting a little self-conscious about this… spectacle. He’s never been a fan of having things out of his control, especially not displays of vulnerability like this, and Hawks knows this, so why prolong it?
��Well, I guess there’s only one thing for it,” he says, taking matters into his own hands.
“Fuck off- what–” Dabi gets out, as Hawks takes his face between his hands and begins to press kisses softly down the bridge of his nose. Hawks doesn’t let him twist away from it, trying not to laugh to himself about how dumb this probably looks. At least one of them is having fun. He considers pulling away with a “Gonna sneeze yet?”, but refrains - he’d probably end up on fire. He does, however, pause for a moment when he reaches Dabi’s trio of silver nose studs, hovering. There’ve been feathery, wavering breaths coming from his boyfriend consistently but, nothing has come to fruition, so Hawks decides–those piercings have always been sensitive, a fact he’d discovered about Dabi rather early on (and maybe, possibly sometimes used to be a menace). He plants a final, delicate kiss right upon where the three studs lie, and finally lets Dabi pull away.
“Oh, oh, fuck– s-screw you–hh’ehH’IIDTSSHh’uh! ‘kXXTS’SHhue! …Christ, you’re such an ass.” The pair of sneezes that result are harsh to say the very least. And even after all that, he still tries stifling the second– unsurprising, but at that point is it even worth it?
“Sorry! I had to!” Hawks says, really trying to look like he isn’t laughing. It doesn’t work.
“You absolutely did not have to,” corrects Dabi.
“Okaaay, okay, sorry. It was funny though.”
“Yeah, for you, maybe,” Dabi mutters, shaking his head, “Oh, fuck’s sake, hold on–”
“I’ll wait till you’re done to say bless you, this time,” says Hawks with a fond snicker.
“Good plah-an–! hhuh’hHDSHH’SHuh! …Ugh, fuck.”
“Bless,” Hawks replies. He averts his eyes, a little sheepishly. Dabi pulls a face.
He asks, “What the fuck’s with the guilty face?” to which Hawks throws his head back with a groan and slides his hands across his face.
“I just wanted to do something nice,” he says, “You know, clean the place up a bit. Since it’s always kind of a massive mess.”
“Jesus, Kei, I don’t care about that,” says Dabi, breathing a laugh. “It’s you I’m here for, not your fuckin’ apartment. I can kiss you whether or not there’s crap on every surface.”
Hawks isn’t used to Dabi outright saying nice things, so his cheeks flush slightly hearing this. He’s unsure what to say. Thankfully, Dabi speaks again.
“Okay. Where didn’t you spray that shit?”
Hawks scoffs. “I sort of went crazy with it, uh… my bedroom? If that works?”
“Very forward,” Dabi replies, raising his eyebrows. “Almost like you wanted me in there.”
Hawks jabs him in the ribs but still smirks. “Yeah, maybe I did.”
#this is also pretty dialogue heavy cause i like doing dialogue but sometimes i do too much. er#its fine though right#also sorry h/awks nation im feeding you next i promise!!#ive just been wanting to get this fic done for ages and i wanted to focus on it yk#but i have a decent sized h/awks wip atm and also a couple other ideas that i really wanna write for him so!!!#fear not#anyway tag time boooooring#snz#snzblr#snz kink#snzario#snz blog#sneeze kink#snzfic#sneezefic#m/ha#d/abihawks#d/abi#OMG ALSO. SORRY IF ITS CRINGE#like the kissing part. its so embarrassing but i just dont Know how to write stuff like that. but i stepped out of my comfort zone for this#so sorry if its crap#in that department
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The funniest thing about taking risks in art is that there is basically no penalty for you if it goes wrong besides a bruised ego. I will wrestle my shit brain into submission and take more risks this year
#the times when i was the most succesful in ny art journey not in terms of technical skill but in#stepping out of my comfort zone and progressing in my education was when I was a kid and couldn’t really conceptualize any#kind of consequence for fucking up#These days I’m in a competition with myself and my lofty expectations#theres some wips I wanna finish that i abandoned because of insecurities a few years back#text
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This is silly, but with Kimiko’s ‘Season’ coming up in my writing list I knew I couldn’t avoid writing romance forever. I’m particularly terrible at romance build up so…I’m starting with practicing established relationships instead. It’s just easier on me that way.
So, uh, ya. You all get to meet Kimiko’s future husband…
And, because tumblr has decided that links aren’t going to function:
Weapons Can Be Demanding by GravityWriting
#xiaolin showdown#kimiko tohomiko#raimundo pedrosa#I don’t read romance and it’s not really something that interests me#but with Kimiko’s story it is unavoidable#so I will do my best#stepping out of my comfort zone
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Wtf I am actually posting my art, even though I'm very self conscious about it? And I'm drawing people? (ew). What has rote done to me?(/derogatory(/affectionate))
Anyway, here's one of my favorite scenes, from Assassin's Quest, where Fitz, the Fool, and Nighteyes have a spontaneous water fight in a creek. I added a frog because who doesn't love frogs?
This scene just holds so much joy in a series that is markedly dark and grim. The relationship that we see on page of the Fool and Fitz is forged by suffering and hardship, but I find so much joy in thinking of all the ways that happy, goofy moments like this could also shape that relationship.
I just think our kids should be allowed to get a little bit silly. Is that really too much to ask?
#Posting art#aka the mortifying ordeal of being perceived#Rote will really change your brain chemistry#(Im making art for a ZINE?!?! Like some kind of fanatic?#My therapist would be so proud of me for stepping out of my comfort zone#This one's for you Jennifer#rote#I am full psycho#my jaw is unhinged#fitzchivalry farseer#the fool#nighteyes#Assassin's Quest#Rote#rote fanart
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I literally do not have anything smart to say here, this drawing literally only happened because my siblings were telling me I should post my brainrot doodles on here, and my anxiety-ridden ass couldn't do it, and decided the only solution was to spend days (read: the entire latter end of April) working on a proper drawing because "if I'm going to post anything on tumblr, it better be a full-ass drawing"
#little fire's art#dragon ball#kaioshin#db shin#grand supreme kai#north supreme kai#south supreme kai#west supreme kai#idk the proper tags#and I don't really care rn#I just want to get this posted so I can hide in the Void for a million years or so#anyway#normal db fan: MY FAV CHARACTER IS [insert super duper powerful character here]#meanwhile#me: *holds up Shin* blorbo...#but hey this drawing did make me make some big steps out of my comfort zone for art#so I guess my db brainrot is good for something??#also for the record I DID finish this a couple days ago#my anxiety just prevented me from posting it here until now#but technically it's still a contender for April's art piece for the end of the year art summary#I'M NOT GOING TO MISS TWO M0NTHS#Feb sucked bc my tablet said fuck you and I had to replace it#if anything looks wonky pose-wise just remember I don't use pose refs much#bc I hate myself#no really#I just about drove myself insane one night trying to figure out how to draw Shin's right arm#bc the angle is weird and idk why I did this to myself#shut the fuck up Fire
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,,, sun-dappled sheets...
#the sapphics got to me okay. portrix real#it's so cute how they go from falling asleep tgt at the presses to having a room to share#adamandi#portia elizabeth harper#beatrix valeria campbell#it was a doodle and then i was like i want to make it softer so i painted it over and in the process rendered it somewhat#it's still quite sketchy akdhfj but u get the vibes!! ++ tried out using a Lot more noise than usual#so that's like the New Art Takeaway from doing this.#;;; i feel like every time i draw wlw fluff it's stepping back deep into my comfort zone haha but yes. soft cosy comfy etc.#my brain was not processing enough to figure out casual wear so this is kind of just the stripped down costumes akdhdjdh but yeah#bonus side note here is i was like hehe wouldn't it be fun if beatrix hand + portia ribbon. as like a nod to contrast how#previously it was strings on their hands instead. and now she cut them off bc portia and also smth smth about the difference#between tying (the strings) and choosing to hold (ribbon) and sjdhdhfhfh ue.#*incoherent noises* it's about the softness. the touching. the idea of choice- but less afraid of losing it- smth smth inherent trust also.#knowing tomorrow you'll still be there..#<- sorry there's a silly little conceptual thing in every adamandi thing i make i think#i would love to say this was For Adamandi Week but i do very badly with timed events so the truth is just. i woke up and saw#@/regret-repentir 's post (which is so so lovely actually) (credit where credit is due) and then spent the next 1.5h drawing portrix#the prompt was post graduation i think? but seeing as i didn't really respond to the prompt itself#it doesn't rly count in my head as a prompt response for the event. idk#it technically works. but also it feels like false advertising...#<blinks> fun times include this being the first time i've drawn adamandi characters entirely without reference. they have been blorbo-ified
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I think the most interesting thing about this scene is simply how Rita is the one to take the first step in cheering everyone up after Gira's speech didn't exactly hit like he wanted to.
Rita's impartiality doesn't really let them interact with civilians much unless it's to protect them or for their work as a judge. Their only interactions with children is mostly for work but never in a way to comfort them like they did on Earth. Perhaps being in a world where their title as King means nothing allowed them to step into that kind of role.
But also note that it could be reflection of their own circumstances as a child and was given the opportunity to comfort kids when they didn't have such privilege after God's Wrath and supposedly losing Karras and imprisoning Shiron. Himeno would have jumped to the opportunity if she wasn't busy helping treat the wounded and Gira seemed to have paused to assess how he could change his way of cheering up everyone since his Tyrant King shtick didn't seem to work.
I think it's rather cute and comforting to know that Rita was able to jump on the opportunity even if it's the only thing they could do at the moment.
#and honestly their specialty in law and impartiality wouldn’t really help anyone in the Resistance#the next best thing is to tackle their softer side#(i do have a draft of this kind of situation from the early episodes but my hc of them being bad with kids grew from later episodes)#but knowing they can open up to step out of their comfort zone for the sake of children in a horrible situation will make me cry 🥲🥲#kingohger#king ohger#ohsama sentai kingohger#rita kaniska#rita kanisuka#kingohger spoilers#kingoh spoilers
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it feels like all of the advice on how to fix my life basically boils down to "you need to feel very distressed most of the time and just hope that things won't make you as distressed one day. even though your brain is like inherently not good with social situations. also you need to be spinning all these plates at all times regardless of how tired you are DO NOT stop spinning the plates."
#it's so hard because like. my brain is desperately trying to protect me in the only way it knows how!#it's bad and not terribly effective but. there's soooooo much distress when i step out of that comfort zone#i don't know how to manage all of this!#anyway. going to a baby shower in like 12 hours and the only person i really know is the one having the baby#so i'm feeling angry that i have to do a hard thing that's likely gonna give me a ton of anxiety... for my own good#i just want to feel safe and i often don't and being told that i can't is both distressing and infuriating
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